How I would give anything just to meet myself for the first time
The small innocent boy with white eyes and pure smile
Sometimes I wonder will that little boy ever come back to life
His hands so small yet so big to hold more dreams than I can run to
Now bigger but turned into fists insecure of what might slip through
His tongue used to say nothing but that which was true
Now even with the knowledge that the pain of the truth is bearable
And the hurt that comes with that truth that’s repairable
Yet still omits and fabricates actuality for reasons unto me unexplainable
Back when love was as simple as checkmark next to YES
Where you didn’t have to offer anything in exchange
He chose to love and believe in himself wholeheartedly like he knew no limits
Now It won’t be far fetched to say self doubt is my religion since its the only thing I seem to believe in
How I would give anything just to meet myself for the first time
Collect every butterfly I’ve ever felt in my stomach
And before giving them to random strangers I’d write lessons I’ve learned on their wings
How I would give anything just to meet myself for the first time
Tell him that I’m still unlearning everything I accidentally tought myself
How I’ve let unexpected planes attack my skyscraper
And left me cleaning up the mess one too many times because it felt good at the moment
About my first love and how I had to cut her off at 18 and again at 20 and again at 21
Like a soldier at battlefield field out of supplies I had to improvise
I marched through my own heart armed with nothing and come out the other side
Not alright but I did survive, right?
I’ve blamed the virgo in me one too many times
Telling myself everything beautiful has a consequence
I’ll tell the little boy of how I’ve baked myself into a buffet
And let others cut into sample and take a slice of whatever they liked
Hid the Bare flawed and unfiltered parts of me because now we live in a society that screams ‘Show me your perfect’
I’ve not cried as much as I’ve needed to and I’m afraid sometimes it shows
How I would give anything just to meet myself for the first time
Teach him to find refuge in words since I do owe it to the poet in me
On my best days he is all that I am and on my worst days he is all that I want to be
Let him know that of all the people I’ve tried to become I think the person that felt most like home
Is the one I’ve tried all this time not to be
I’m now 22 and I’m still not sure what love really is
All I know is I’ve tried to find it everywhere but here Inside of me
Do I love myself?
I’m not sure but I know I’m a lot closer to an answer today than I was yesterday
Do I love myself?
I love myself a little more than I did yesterday and that has to count for something, right?
My honesty is a declaration of this love
Maybe I’m the only one being truthful maybe this is self love
Not knowing sometimes knowing like right now I feel more alive than most days
But tomorrow still remains unknown and whatever it holds and unfolds
I’ll place my hands on my chest and remember when little me use to do the same and say
This thing inside of me beats so whole for anything halfheartedly
~DIDO
Wow๐๐ what a talent this is epic and interesting i definitely love it๐ฏ๐ฏ
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I’m waiting for your book bro
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You just never disappointโฆ
Talent on another level๐๐ฆ
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Great job bro
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I hear you. ๐ฆ
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Feels nice to be Heard
I appreciate that ๐
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I love getting to read the inner thoughts of creative minds like yourself. Thank you for sharing your beautiful work!
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I appreciate you taking your time read my work
Thank you ๐
And I’m glad that you like it
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This is pure talent. keep on shining๐ค
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This is so gorgeous, Unspoken! Raw and refined at the same time, and utterly universal. Thanks for visiting Be Whole Now and setting a meaningful, authentic tone for my day.
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Thank you for your appreciation it means a lot…
Looking forward to what I’ll be reading next from Be Whole Now
Thank you
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The poem resonated with me on so many levels. It was a painfully beautiful read.
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I appreciate you taking your time to read my work
Always remember to love yourself first ๐
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โHow Iโve let unexpected planes attack my skyscraperโ โ Amazing.
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Much appreciated
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Thank you ๐ ๐ธ๐Kindness
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Love the raw vulnerability. Have you ever read Brunรฉ Brown? Sheโs amazing in her writings about the courage it takes to be vulnerable and authentic. Itโs a lifetime journey for sure! Loving and accepting ourselves, flaws and all, is certainly necessaryโฆbecause we canโt give others love if we donโt love ourselves, humbly and honestly, first. Best wishes!
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Much appreciated…
Not yet but thanks for the recommendations I’ll be sure to check out her work
Thank you ๐
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Holy shit. This is stunningly raw. Love this! โค๏ธ
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Thank you โฅ๏ธ
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Reblogged this on ilovemydogjewelry.
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I appreciate that
Thank you…
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Love the honesty and it is so beautifully done. โCollect every butterfly Iโve ever felt in my stomach And before giving them to random strangers Iโd write lessons Iโve learned on their wingsโ now that is a lovely thought.
Nice to โmeetโ you,
Melanie
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Much appreciated Melanie
Nice to “meet” you too๐
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Great piece!
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This is so beautiful, so relatable. Marvellous ๐๐๐
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Thank you ๐
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Good Lord, Dido. You’re 22 and beyond brilliant. I’m 55 and this spoke to every level of me. That You are where You are now with the WONDERFUL wisdom and love in Your heart that You possess….and Your ability to state Yourself so eloquently…WOW. Truly. Lovely. This line:
How I would give anything just to meet myself for the first time
Collect every butterfly Iโve ever felt in my stomach
And before giving them to random strangers Iโd write lessons Iโve learned on their wings
will sincerely stay with me as a sweet teacher for the rest of my life. Thank You so very much for this. Cheers and ROCK ON!!! ๐โค๏ธ๐
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Much appreciated
This is the best thing I’ve seen today means so much to me
Reminds me of why I started writing in the first place
Thank you โฅ๏ธ
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Absolutely my pleasure!!! โค๏ธ
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It would seem you may have been away from here for awhile. One would imagine your writing thrives somewhere. In this moment, this discovery of a self-truth is so resonate. At 22 just keep your beginning strong, imagine the words that will follow your future. Lovely piece.
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I’m fully back now
This means so much thank you
Much appreciated
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Wow. I feel this.
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Thank you
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This is so beautiful.
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Thank you
Much appreciated
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Absolutely beautiful. Love it.
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Thank you
Much appreciated
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Your words crushed through my heart and soul. I know your pain.
Keep sharing – love your truth.
Dr. Deb
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Incredible use of metaphors and figurative speech!
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This is great!
Thank you for sharing your beautiful work!
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Collect every butterfly Iโve ever felt in my stomach
And before giving them to random strangers Iโd write lessons Iโve learned on their wingsโฆjust wow. Your honesty and transparency touch my heart and bring me to tears. Your truth brings light.
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It’s all part of finding home…the perfect home
Self love is where it all beings
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Unable to reblog so am forwarding this via copy and paste to my readers at sister site Poetic Justice, with credit
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Sure much Appreciated
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Such a beautiful piece with imagery already mentioned by other readers that touched me deeply. We start out so innocent and honest and then we experience life. Self-love is something we all struggle with as we find the balance between trusting ourself and judging our decisions/actions. All I can say is trust that your writing is something to be shared for it helps others to reflect and remember our own pasts, while giving us inspiration to walk into our futures. Beautiful writing!!
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Wowโฆโฆ.and thatโs what we call talent
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Beautiful pen! Words of nostalgia expressed with finesse โค๏ธ
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Wow that was so beautifully written. the way you expressed it was amazing. I felt each and every word that you penned down.
Keep on writing๐
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Exceptional & amazing talent. Keep sharing your gift & keep healing & loving yourself. We all benefit!
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Very heartfelt and relatable. ๐ Thank you.
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This is stunningly beautiful, and vulnerable, and honest. I felt every word to my core. And it set me free a little, and helped me, too, to love myself a little more than yesterday.
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The most sincere and honest work of writing Iโve read in a really, really long time. Seriously. I canโt begin to describe to you how much I love and adore every single word of this masterpiece. I may end up asking you to use some of these lines for some songs. Thank you so much for this.
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Thank you for your appreciation. Have a great day
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You have deep poetry that has brilliant imagery and stunning emotions. You are a very creative writer and if you would, I would love to nominate you for the Sunshine Blogger Award. Thanks and congrats. ๐
https://theunsignedwriter.home.blog/2020/06/30/nominated-sunshine-blogger-award/
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Thank you and much appreciated ๐
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My pleasure. Can’t wait to read your answers. ๐
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This was beautiful!
Hope you’re well! I nominated you for the Sunshine Blogger Award!
https://patbunnyblog.wordpress.com/2020/07/09/sunshine-blogger-award/
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I am in shock! that is amazing and beautiful and .. it is EVERYTHING. I was inspired by the first few lines, and as I kept reading I was thinking how much I related to this .. You were inspiring me to write a version for myself but as I kept reading, I was thinking … you have said it all .. you have said everything I would want to say with more emotion and truth than I ever could, and there is no way I could take you inspiration and create my own because you have done it so perfectly. This is something I would want bookmarked and framed to remind myself of person I was and the person I would want to be and every piece of love I have given.
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I’ve been away for a while but seen this comment means everything to me and I’ll be back to writing more…seeing this is definitely what I needed currently
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